Chrissy Teigen opens up about being cancelled following cyberbullying scandal
Says the model in a recent Instagram post, “Cancel club is a fascinating thing ... Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it.“
62nd Grammy Awards – Arrivals – Los Angeles, California, U.S., January 26, 2020 – Chrissy Teigen. REUTERS/Mike Blake/Files
Chrissy Teigen took to Instagram on Wednesday (Jul 14) to share a lengthy and candid post about her mental health since joining what she has termed "cancel club".
“I don’t really know what to say here… just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter shit in real life,” her post detailed. “Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race.”
The 35-year-old model and mother of two explained that being embroiled in a cyberbullying scandal has left her feeling lost and adrift.
“But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer. I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way!!”
The post follows a series of bullying allegations levelled against Teigen, which took place earlier this year, following which, her entertainment career and brand partnerships took a hit.
“Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it,” the post continued. “And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiny when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.”
In the message, Teigen reached out to her fans, telling them that “I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just...tired of being sick with myself all day”.
The controversy surrounding Teigen, who's married to singer John Legend, began in May, when 26-year-old Courtney Stodden resurfaced a number of Teigen’s past tweets to accuse her of cyberbullying.
Stodden, who uses the they/ them pronouns, alleged in a Daily Beast interview that Teigen previously sent them disparaging comments on Twitter – telling them to take a “dirt nap” and “go to sleep forever". Teigen’s tweets took place when then 16-year-old Stodden faced widespread ridicule for marrying their 51-year-old acting coach, Doug Hutchinson.
Since Stodden’s statement, a few other television personalities have piled on the cyberbullying allegations, including fashion designer Michael Costello and former Teen Mom star Farrah Abraham.
In response to the allegations, Teigen issued multiple public apologies over Twitter and Medium, describing her former self as an “insecure, attention seeking troll” and explaining how she felt “the crushing weight of regret for the things (she had) said in the past”.
Despite her apologies, the backlash surrounding Teigen’s past tweets has taken a toll on her career. This includes losing business deals and dropping out of an upcoming Netflix voiceover role. On top of which, Teigen decided to step back from her cleaning supplies company, Safely, that she launched with her close friend, Kris Jenner.
In spite of it all, Teigen seems to be taking her fall from grace in her stride (and with a little humour) – ending off her Instagram post with, “If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u and goodbye I love u”.
